This day was always going to arrive.

I broke down.

Alone, when my mom left the room.

It has been years since I last felt a tear streak down my face.

People ask mewhy I look so dead,

so tired, so angry.

People ask me which girl did it,

I just smile them a sad smile.

Do you know how hard it is,

to be an only child whose parents had you late?

Meaning, one of my parents is actually quite old.

Do you realise that the world's problems aren't only based on girls?

How frustrating it is,

to have to excel without any support.

How frustrating it is,

to always be frowned upon, always seen as doing something wrong.

How frustrating it is,

to not be able to confide in your own parents.

Sometimes I wonder, why would people even want to be me.

I would give away all my achievements,

all my skills,

just to have that single problem solved.

Frustrated,

I would always hurt the very people I care about.

I have the strong urge to tell someone,

to let things out..

But I don't trust anyone.

I hurt the only person I trusted..

and now she won't even reply my texts.

I asked my mom whether I could move to my aunt's place,

even if its just for the O level period.

I want to move away from all my problems,

even if its just for the O level period.

Now I hope you understand why I always wanted to talk to you.

Because I always felt lonely, no matter how many friends I have.

Lonely.